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[Mar. 13th, 2007|09:18 am] |
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| Tried not to... |
[Feb. 23rd, 2007|11:10 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Norwich | ] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | Smashing Pumpkins | ] |
...write one of these but I am so bored and have no idea what to do with myself so I am gonna write one of these and just get all this shit out of my head.
Broke up with Vicky. She cant be in a relationship, I want her more than anything. I am not coping at all with not being with her and her kissing people is making me feel like complete shit. I know she can do what she wants I just want to be the one who is kissing her because I love her. I hate how she can just go from loving me to seemingly like we were only ever just friends. Its like she has just switched it off, I wish I could do that because I would do anything to stop how I am feeling right now. I have tried to be strong and not make a scene and just try and make things easy for her but last night just shows I cannot do that. I want her and she doesnt want me/cant be with me whatever it is and I just dont know how to be OK with her being like she is. I am a complete nervous wreck and drank myself silly last night. I said something I think I regret, I told her she has lost me, she said that was the one thing she didnt want. But how can I stay being so close to her if she is going off with other guys and while I am still in love with her. I will never be able to have her back and I dont think I can cope with that. Maybe that makes me a bad person. I dont want to just walk away from her completely but maybe thats what I have to do. She says she is worried about me but I just find that so hard to believe. She has completely fucked me up right now whether she meant to or not and I am not ok with that. People say I should just move on and forget her but I dont want that. I want her back, I want her in my arms, I wanna be her boyfriend. We were too good a couple to just let her get away from me. I sound so fucking diluded but perhaps thats how I need to be right now. Actually its not how I need to be but its how I am so I am just gonna have to deal with it. Why cant I just be ok with this? She is, so why cant I? She will probably be angry at me for writing this and stuff but I dont care. I need to get this out and I need to scream and shout and just wash this shit out of my system. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2007|12:18 pm] |
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People keep telling me to do something I really dont wanna do, eurch :( |
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| Interesting week... |
[Dec. 8th, 2006|07:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Norwich | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Smashing Pumpkins | ] |
It will be over soon, well two days time, and I will be glad.
Very weird events.
Tuesday night/wednesday morning being the extreme worst of this week. Been called a coward, wuss, loser by too many people since. Eurch.
I have a feeling Christmas might be ok, will see some old friends who I miss and some I dont quite miss. Will probably be back in Norwich sooner rather than later.
Hope I can see Vic over the holidays as a month is a long time and ill miss her.
Not really sure whats going on with much these days though :S :( |
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[Dec. 1st, 2006|12:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Norwich | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Colin Hay - Overkill | ] |
1. Go to Wikipedia.
2. Type in your birth month and day (no year): 7th February.
3. List three events that happened on your birth date:
457 - Leo I becomes emperor of the Byzantine Empire.
1613 - Mikhail Romanov becomes Tsar of Russia.
1807 - Napoleonic Wars: Battle of Eylau - Napoléon's French Empire begins fighting against Russian and Prussian forces of the Fourth Coalition at Eylau, Poland.
4. List two important births and one death that happened on that date:
1478 - Sir Thomas More, English statesman, humanist, and author.
1812 - Charles Dickens, English novelist.
1979 - Josef Mengele, Nazi war criminal.
5. List one holiday or observance, if any:
Independence Day in Grenada.
So yeah. Life is slowly working itself out on all fronts. Its a lot of work but its worth it! :) |
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| Yesterday |
[Oct. 26th, 2006|10:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Norwich | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Beatles | ] |
Success!!
Seeing her smile so good :D
That is all. |
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| Pling |
[Oct. 14th, 2006|10:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Norwich | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Contemplative - think its that | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Damien Rice - O | ] |
Morning y'all
So....
First few weeks of Uni have gone by pretty easily and theyre fun. Really needed to be doing more work than I am at the moment but dont seem to want to...oh dear. Will need to work this afternoon and after Mum goes home on Sunday.
Saw Vic for a bit last night and it was really good. Probably should have stayed longer but just wasnt in the mood for pub so came back and watched Pink Floyd dvd. There was a party by the lake apparantly but I didnt go...think a few peeps did so hope you lot had a good time.
In pretty good mood I think but not sure lol...FUCKING odd!
Nan and Mum coming to visit this Sunday and going for meal with them, Ian and Vicky :D
Tuesday night me and Vic having a night in and im gonna cook her dinner and we gonna watch movies and stuff :) Been so long since we have had some proper time to ourselves so itll be really good.
Peace y'all. Brup Brup. |
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| A series of unfortunate events... |
[Oct. 8th, 2006|11:12 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Norwich, Ivory Road | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | Sheepish-shit | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dark Side of the Moon - Pink Floyd | ] |
Sooooo yesterday house party at Vickys...lots of freshers...lots of events haha.
First of all our friend Tom was set upon by a chav, by this time I was drunk btw, so me, Ben, Sarah and Jack went off to campus to help him and make sure he was ok. While doing this we were started on by a drug dealer type person who I refused to back down to and Ben had to diffuse the situation. After this we received a call from Vicky that her neighbour had broken into the garden and was causing trouble. So we got back as soon as we could and eventually got him out of the garden. Everyone was a bit shook up by this, well except for the Freshers who seemed completely oblivious to it all haha. I had been dizzy most of the night but hid it because of all the stuff that needed sorting out...am regretting it now though as, in the words of Withnail, "I feel like a pig shit in my head"!...plus walked out onto roundabout by Tesco and almost got hit by car cos I am not with it :S
Vic was pretty upset and I was completely out of it so got EVERYTHING wrong lol...yay for me :( Felt/still feel like I really let her down because im a complete fool and should have been there when th twat next door was being aggressive.
Did get to spend night cuddling Vic though which was good as its been a while since we have and it was really comfy :)
Got so much work to do now though :( |
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| Updates... |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|04:02 pm] |
Hello all...well we finally have internet in our house...however there is still not a working network so only I can access it at the moment lol...
So I have moved into my new house and I love it! :D
My room is pretty much how I want it now but still a few things to add to it...place is a bit of a mess but I am doing SOME housework when I can be arsed with it haha.
Seen Nan, Mum etc a good few times although didnt actually get a proper goodbye with Daniel, Adam and Chris which was a bit annoying but no doubt I shall see them soon.
Have been drunk a good few times since ive been back lol.
Been on a couple of crawls and a few nights in at the Uni pub which has been good.
Vicky is now back in Norwich so have been seeing quite a lot of her :)
Me and her are very strong atm and having an awesome time together!! |
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[Aug. 16th, 2006|08:26 pm] |
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Im moving to Norwich on Saturday so all those who fancy a meet up and a drink just let me know :D |
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[Aug. 15th, 2006|01:13 am] |
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Havent eaten, havent slept...oh dear |
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[Aug. 6th, 2006|05:48 pm] |
 | You scored as atheism. You are... an atheist, though you probably already knew this. Also, you probably have several people praying daily for your soul.
Instead of simply being "nonreligious," atheists strongly believe in the lack of existence of a higher being, or God.
atheism | | 79% | Islam | | 75% | Satanism | | 75% | agnosticism | | 67% | Judaism | | 54% | Buddhism | | 50% | Paganism | | 46% | Christianity | | 25% | Hinduism | | 8% | </td>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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[Aug. 3rd, 2006|02:02 pm] |
Apologies to anyone who had to talk to me last night.
I am a retard. |
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| Belrgh |
[Aug. 3rd, 2006|10:19 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Croydahn | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | hungover | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dark Side of the Moon | ] |
Why the fuck do I drink?...it NEVER helps me!
So went drinking last night with some "old mates" and all it did was reaffirm what I thought about them in the first place..I mean come on it took 5 minutes for the first fat joke to appear and it wasnt even a funny one it was just plain insulting. So I decided that drinking myself silly was the only appropriate course of action...then after telling someone that Vic was out with a couple of male friends (and her sister I might add) they managed to twist it into me having self doubt blah..everyone was doing that..even my Dad and Nan..why do people annoy me so...I hadnt even bloody thought about it..I was just happy that I had got to see her and got a kiss lol... blah so anyway then I got even more drunk. Then I took something Ben said a little out of context and broke down crying uncontrollably in the middle of this pub. Adam took me back home where I had a blackout and ended up on the floor in the hall way and was then sick in the toilet. Think I talked to Vicky down the phone blurting out loads of crap and crying even more...I passed out after that point. I am a complete twat of the highest order and I really dont know why Vicky puts up with me to be honest.
I also had Trimmer pray for me in this pub and I also told him that I would happily marry Vic because I think shes the one.
Dont think Vicky is gonna wanna talk to me today... |
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| Glasgee |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|09:53 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Croydonia | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pink Floyd | ] |
So I am back from Glasgow and I can say that I had that most amazing time!! :D
Forgot to add in my last entry that Vicky came to stay for a night and it was really good to see her and we went to the pub where Adam filmed her beating me up hehe.
So anyway I went to Glasgow. On Thursday Adam and I took the train up through the Peak district and it was a wonderful view. Got into Glasgow and was met by a couple of friends who showed us round for a bit and then we checked into our hotel. Afterwards me and Adam decided to go for a little bit of an explore and worked our way through 2 pubs and a pizza hut hehe. The pubs in Glasgow are REALLY good and beat the hell out of anything ive found in London/Croydon.
On Friday we went off to Edinburgh to meet my friend Sarah from Uni (who is working there during the summer as a tour guide) and to see the sites. We saw the Castle but the queues were huge so we didnt bother going in...walked round the side though and saw the views out over Edinburgh. Then we walked down the Royal Mile into the Cathedral and into various whisky shops hehe. Got myself a pewter hip flask which looks AMAZING!! :D Got parents a bottle of whisky and one for Vicky aswell. Also got a couple of fine cuban cigars with Adam lol. Met up with Sarah and went into a couple of pubs before wandering along the rest of the Royal Mile down to the Scottish Parliament building and to Holyrood Palace. The Parliament building is an ugly fucker of a structure haha. We also walked round to a lake where there were lots of swans and very fat pigeons so I was content...also it started raining so I was very happy :)
On Saturday me and Adam got up a little late and went around Glasgow for the day. We walked up to the Cathedral and had a look around St. Mungo's Museum of Religious Art which was pretty interesting. The Cathedral was awesome and had a place inside called Blackadders Walk which was dedicated to a former bishop called Blackadder which made me laugh hehe :D Me and Adam then wandered back into Glasgow where we took lunch at TGI's thanks to Adams buy one get one free vouchers on main courses haha. Then we walked around further taking a look at a few of the little shops and just exploring the city. We then found a pub called the Rhoderick Dhu and it was a specialist whisky and ale pub so we were in our element. I loved this pub and we spent quite a bit of time in there getting drunk on both the Saturday and Sunday hehe. We were very tipsy so we went back to the hotel late in the evening and slept.
Sunday saw Sarah coming to visit us in Glasgow and we took to the art museums of Glasgow. We saw the Glasgow Museum of Modern art and also the Lighthouse which were both pretty interesting. I must admit I sometimes miss the point of Modern art but the Renny Mackintosh stuff was really really awesome but then again its more Art Deco which ive never had a problem with. Fantastic views out over Glasgow from the top of the Lighthouse aswell which was pretty cool. We then went back to the Rhoderick Dhu where we drank, lots, and talked which was cool. Sarah then went back to Edinburgh and me and Adam went for a pizza hut lol. Drank some more in the Dhu and then went to a pub we went to on the first night called the Drum and Monkey which has a lovely ale called Bitter and Twisted hehe. Went back to the hotel eventually and had 3 Magners so I was pretty pished by that point.
Monday morning saw me and Adam have a little wander, a good breakfast and then caught the train home.
Thus ends my epic trip to Glasgow and I would definitely go back :) |
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